Hope In Me (:

Being with you allows me life, without you there is no life. I remember when I use to want to get on my knees and cry and just wonder why. Why am going through, I sigh. You came along when I was ready to die. Your my son inside the dark. You helped me see hope in the dark. I've realized, life's no walk in the park, but with you by my side, I could build noah's arc, better yet see the light. It's true, a good woman is all you need. Praise the lord for bringing this girl to me. Feeling like this can't be real. New found hope, did I just pop a pill? What's the deal? I thought my hope was done. How did you set me straight? Now I got hope in life and now I want nothing to do with a knife. Death was a way out, but now it Just doesn't seem right. Holding on tight to life known as my wife. She's dear to me, I hope she never decides to disappear from me. Fear can't describe the feelings that would exist in me if we were not able to be. Unable to be described like the feelings you make me feel. There's not enough advanced words in the world, to explain or describe how I feel. Left with what I have, I work everyday to show you my love. Deeply in love with you and it's definitely real. Especially if I'm down the road, imagining us in a forever relationship. I see you cooking while naveah and me wait in time. Hungry as ever, we can't wait to eat. I can see all three of us having a fest. That's what I look forward to, that's the hope in me. You, me and naveah are the perfect 3.

Together We Will Die, Ryme!

Everyday with you is a beautiful day, weather you make me mad or sad. On those suppose to be mad or sad days, I can't stay either. All it takes from you is a smile or laugh and I promise you, I won't be either. Can't explain this magic you got over me. Dark magic or good magic, it's to hard to tell. But let's not dwell. If I dwell, it's only because I can't tell if this real. Me and you, how is that real? I'm just a lost ugly black boy trying to find my way over the hill. I forrreal can't believe this is real. Waking up to a good morning text everyday is like a pinch telling me this is real. Can I really be with the one I been looking for, for years. I thought it was only a dream to be with someone that fulfills your dreams and wishes. One day I will be watching you clean the dishes while I'm working going down the road to riches. I hope to one day visit that road, then I'll tell you no more dishes. Your a princess, the maid can do the dishes. Never want to see you working, a life as a queen better suits you. I'm almost sure your roots take you back to royal. Royal blood it is that you have. Bending over backwards isn't for you. You should be sitting over a thrown while I feed you fruit. I could never be mean to you. Treat you like my heart, that's something I could never be mean to. Looking down the road, wishing and hopping you'll be there. To be quite frank, if you wasn't there, I don't even know if I'll get there, to my future life where I'm suppose to be living my life. Without you there is no life, not for me and there will never be as long as your not with me. You get me, I need you. Sort of how our shoes need me and you too. They can't walk themselves. What's a shoe without a foot, just a display. Without you I lose meaning, my heart, I would just be a display, fore you create meaning for me and get me though the day. An incomplete life is no life to live, everyday I'm with you I have more and more reason to live. You are my other half, that missing piece I was looking for. Now that I'm complete, my life has meaning. Living my life with you gives me a reason to be. You are my life. You are my emotions. Your happiness make me happy. I'm dedicated to making you happy. I love you so much. Thank you so much for allowing in your life.

May this be a constant reminder to you, forever booming in your, this text, these feelings I wish to convey through my words. One day these words will blossom and grow into your heart, where they will be accepted and believed, then you will know, there's actually a place for you in my heart. My words aren't play, they come from the heart. I wonder how these words could come out the dark. Once upon a time, my heart was dark. Now, pink, just like an ideal heart. Now listen to me, this isn't going to be a walk in the park, but guess what. Me and you will always find our way through the dark. We may argue, it's natural. As natural as an arguement can be, so can we. US being together is as natural as can be. No struggle to be together, just the struggle of who gets to go first.--You know the natural and normal disagreements in life. Those disagreements that we won't let destroy "our life". True love never dies, that's why we will survive. Shine through any darkness, let's show people that we will survive, fore in the end we will. Together we will die.

Not Doing My Job Right?

In my opinion, the worst thing your girlfriend can do besides cheat on you is tell you that shes lonely. It's especially worst to hear when your the cause of it. Hearing that from a girl makes me feel like i'm not doing my job right. From what I know, girls dread for attention and when they don't get it, most girls tend to turn to other guys for comfort. When a girl feels lonely, i feel that shes easily able to make mistakes. She told me she was lonely lastnight and I went to sleep on her... Stupid, STUPiD, STUPiD !!!

Ugh, I feel like crap. Bad day here I come :(

10 Reasons Why I Choose Her Over Other Girls

Coming Soon ! Be Patient Scrub LOL

Only Girl for Me (:

A couple of times my baby thought since I've been talking to my ex girlfriend that there is a possibility that things can rekindle. Honestly, i'm not attracted to my ex or any other girl. I'm not saying I think everyone is ugly. I think other girls are cute and all that means is that i'm human. Even though i might find other girls cute, i'm not attracted to them on a level that I want to be with them. Only girl that gets that level of attraction is my baby.

The girls I find cute aren't even close to being as good looking as my baby though. My girl, to me, is like a goddess. Every other girl are just plain mortal humans. My girl has this glow to her and everyone else glowless. To be frank, she stands out from the rest. I've reached the max limit of good, shes as good as it gets. No one can compare to her. Hopefully, one day, she gets that in her that no one can compare to her.

I've reach the point where I want to marry her. Shes the one, I dont see myself finding anyone else better, so why not marry her? I promised if I married her, I would be the best husband and father. Me and her would start a family and be the best parents ever. We'll be nice to our children, provide for them, support there goals and all that good stuff. But anyway, I got off-topic. The main point of this post was to say that shes the only person to me !

I LOVE YOU BABY !!!

Everything is going to be okay (:

So yesterday I allowed her to read my post called " trust issues " and her response was unexpected. Before I tell you her repsonse, heres how I thought she would react: I thought she would of been upset, but she wasn't upset. I think she was being understanding--All she said was that she was going to work on getting my trust. It made me happy that she said that. I simply told her okay and that I appreciate it.

The same day I told her about my post, I came to realization that I've been comparing her to the past me. In the past, i've never knew boundaries with girls. To be frank, i didn't know how to just be friends with a girl and I guess I dont think she can just be friends with a guy, but that isn't fair because were different people. Just because that's how I was doesn't mean shes that way.

I feel more at peace since having the realization. Everything is just prefect now. No worries linger ragarding or relationship. Now, I am just enjoy what we have which is unconditional love. I'm ready to marry this girl and let her bare my childrens. She definately the one for me, I feel it in my heart. Everyday my love grows stronger for her.

She went through some family issues yesterday and we got school today so i'll get to see and possibly put a smile on her face. Boy! Seeing her smile and all happy has to be the best thing in the world.

I tell her shes beautiful to see her smile, she doesnt think she is, but she is the most beautiful girl in the world. I'll prove it to her oneday, oneday she will realize that I really do feel the things I say I feel. Anyway, i'm about to get back to talking to her, I miss her. Peace out!

The Spark: The Kiss That Started it All

I remember first talking to her. My cousin had got her phone number on facebook, but wanted me to talk to her for him, so I did. We had the most legit conversation ever which played a role in sparking what we have now. She thought I was my cousin the whole time we were talking though and I really liked her because she was really cool to talk to, so I had to break it down to her. I told her I was not isiah. She was a bit confused at first and that was about it. She wasn't mad or anything. We continued talking as friends for a lil while. One day I decided to hang with her.

I called her up and pretty much begged her to let me see her. She kept making excuses of why she couldn't hang with me. After awhile of convincing, she allowed me to come see her, so went over to where she was at. It was the most awkward situation I ever been in. I was being really shy because she was just so beautiful. Her on the other hand, was all confident.. well thats what it looked like, she said she was shy. She told me I was just so handsome. But anyway, me and my cousin and her chilled and talked and had a great time.

When it was time for her to go, we dropped her off by her house. When she got out the car to walk to her house, i got out too and asked for a hug. Next thing you know, we were kissing. Me and her have no clue who made the move on the kiss. Ever since the kiss, we was crazy for each other. We wanted to be together after that kiss and we got what we've wanted. Were now together and happier then ever! (: I love her so much!